where ya been, kid?

i hate this LOOOOOOOOONG chasm of time between posts. i hate it like i hate a new journal. i mean, i love a new journal. there's such possibility...such potential...such PRESSURE! the first blank page mocks me. it says...renee...this journal is a sacred space...fill it with your many profound and amazing thoughts. and i have them...profound amazing thoughts. i do. it's just when i'm buried under medical textbooks, those profound thoughts get squished by words like parasympathomimetics, and beta-adrenergic agonists...and rhinorrhea. rhinorrhea is the medical term for a runny nose. i'm not lying. look it up. i think that's hilarious! but i digress. wait...one more thing...i can't write in a lined journal. it's too confining. i need clean sheets of no lined paper...preferably of a heavier nature (cardstock-ish, if you will) and some type of gel ink pen. even better--a super fine sharpie. i do my study notes like this too. i know...i'm a freak of nature. i've learned to deal with this.

where was i?
blank pages, rhinorrhea, profound thoughts, new journal, chasm of time...oh yes!! now i remember...

chasm of time. i feel that when there is such a lapse in time between my posts, i really have to wow you when i come back. that leads to the pressure and the squishing of the creativity...which leads to more time because i just don't have anything to write...and then it spirals out of control and a whole month or more passes by.

sheesh.

so, i could bring you up to date on the specific details of my life the last few months, but really, this sums it up...i studied, i worked, i studied, i slept, i ate, i studied, i studied, i studied, i studied, i freaked out, i studied, i panicked, i studied, i took my finals, i passed. the end.

now that you're up to date...and i'm officially on christmas break from both school and work, there's room for some profound-ness. or at least some content instead of the nothingness i’ve left you with for the past month. 

i'm back!!!!

merry christmas!!!!