and now it's time for a bit from the soundtrack to renee's life...playing today on the ipod is...

the emptiest day

by caedmon's call

they say You live in hospitals and trenches

and towers in the sky

and i'm not dying or fighting any wars

except on the inside

the only thing i need is a void that You can fill

and i jump ship and run even further in your will

and i am looking for a well that won't run dry

the rest that weary thoughts cannot deny

when You wrap Your arms around me

i can walk away or face the emptiest day

the words i find impossible to mention

are written on a star

they say that i can find You in a flower

but i need You in the car

the optimism of my youth is dead and gone

but i'll save these speculations for another time and song

and life is only perceived through chemicals and emotion

but love, love is the island that overgrows the ocean

i'm trying to put my thoughts to words.  there might be more explanation later, maybe not.  but for now...ponder...

let me know your thoughts...