Wednesday, June 18, 2008

i should be sleeping. seriously, i should be sleeping. yet, it is 11:11pm and i'm sitting here in my parents' office in the dark in front of this brightly lit monitor.
my dad is snoring. i can hear him from here. i've tried to sleep...really i have...it's just these annoying staples in my stomach. i can't get comfortable. i toss and turn...maybe let's try to lay on the right side...but then a stitch pulls on the left...nope that's not going to work. don't even try the left side...that hurts even more! maybe roll onto your back...stink...why is it so hot in here??? the ceiling fan is on now, but it has this incessant whirring/banging sound...it's kind of like chinese torture. pull off the sheet...now i'm cold. not to mention, i've had this fear since i was a child about sleeping without some kind of covering...if i'm covered with at least a sheet, the monster under my bed won't reach out and grab me. put the sheet back on...maybe if i turn up the fan, the constant whirring/banging will stop. is it time for a pain pill yet? nope not quite. dang it. and the madness starts again...
i know i'm supposed to learn something from this. and i think i've been a pretty good sport about this sickness deal that's been going on since february, but COME ON! can't a chick get a break? haha...even as i typed this last sentence, the scripture from philippians resonates throughout my mind. "...for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances." haha...God sure has a great sense of humor. real funny, God. thanks a lot.
i guess i'll head back to the bedroom and try again. it's about time for a pain pill...maybe this time, i'll fall into the sweet slumber of the drugged...

1 comment:

Katie said...

What about pillows underneath you when you lay on your side? That helped me. Also sometimes putting one between my legs because it straightened everything? Sorry you are so uncomfortable, I'll be praying!